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Synopsis
Love did not begin with creation. God did not discover love through humanity, law, covenant, or obedience. Love existed first, complete and unthreatened, and creation flowed out of it. When that order is forgotten, faith becomes anxious, urgent, and heavy. When it is remembered, faith becomes something that can be lived instead of managed.
Many people feel unsettled right now, not because they lack belief, but because the structures they leaned on can no longer carry the weight of truth. Delay feels like absence. Confusion feels like failure. Trial feels like punishment. But love that precedes creation is not in a hurry, does not panic, and does not abandon those who seek it. God’s patience is not distance. His silence is not neglect.
Fear-driven systems accelerate time and demand reaction. God does not. His authority is steady, relational, and patient. Deception does not overtake those rooted in love, and preparedness is not constant vigilance but spiritual steadiness. Trial is not where love disappears, but where secondhand belief gives way to shared relationship.
Faith was never meant to feel like survival under pressure. It was meant to feel like belonging. Love came first. Everything else follows. And the God who loved before creation is not asking His people to brace themselves, but to remain with Him.
Monologue
Before anything was made, before light separated from darkness, before language, law, or even time as we understand it existed, there was love. Not a response, not a solution, not a correction to a problem, but love complete in itself. God did not create because He was lonely, lacking, or in need of witnesses. Creation flowed out of something already whole. That matters more than most of what we argue about today, because it means love is not downstream from the world. The world is downstream from love.
Most of what we know about God comes secondhand. It comes through teaching, tradition, doctrine, debate, and inheritance. None of those things are wrong, but they are not the source. They are descriptions of a reality that existed before words were ever assigned to it. Secondhand love can explain God, defend God, and even fear God, but it struggles to rest in Him. That is why so many sincere believers feel anxious, rushed, or spiritually braced all the time, as if faith is something that must constantly be proven under pressure.
When love comes first, it changes how we understand everything else. God’s patience is no longer delay. God’s silence is no longer absence. God’s allowance of trial is no longer cruelty. If love precedes creation, then God is not experimenting with humanity, and He is not improvising history. He is inviting participation in something older than the universe itself. But participation requires capacity, and capacity is not formed through explanation alone.
This is where trial enters the story, not as punishment, but as preparation. Love that is never tested remains theoretical. Love that is never strained remains secondhand. God does not use suffering to withhold Himself, but to stretch us so we can hold more of what He is already offering. Trial is not God standing back. It is God walking with us while something in us grows strong enough to move from inherited belief into shared relationship.
Fear-based systems do not understand this, because false authority cannot afford patience. It accelerates time, demands urgency, and feeds on panic. It tells people they must act now, decide now, fear now, or be lost. God does none of this. The God whose love existed before creation has no need to rush, no need to manipulate, and no need to coerce. His authority is steady because it is not threatened by time.
Many people today feel confused, disoriented, and unsettled, and they assume that means they are failing spiritually. Often the opposite is true. Confusion frequently appears when old frameworks can no longer carry deeper truth. What feels like instability may actually be the moment when secondhand answers begin to loosen, making room for something real. God often removes what we leaned on so that we can finally learn to walk with Him instead of around Him.
This is not a call to abandon doctrine, Scripture, or discernment. It is a call to remember their purpose. They are witnesses, not replacements. They point toward God; they are not meant to stand between us and Him. When faith becomes heavy, fearful, and exhausting, it is often because love has been reduced to concepts rather than shared as relationship.
God is not asking His people to figure Him out under pressure. He is not hiding the truth from those who seek Him sincerely. He is inviting humanity, patiently and gently, to move from knowing about Him into knowing Him. And that journey almost always passes through trial, not because love is distant, but because love is deeper than we imagined.
Love came first. Everything else follows. And the God who loved before creation is not in danger of losing control now.
Part 1
Most people were introduced to God through explanations before they were ever invited into relationship. They learned descriptions, rules, timelines, and definitions long before they learned how to rest in His presence. None of that was malicious, but it shaped the way faith was experienced. God became someone to understand correctly rather than someone to know deeply. Love became something to analyze instead of something to inhabit.
There is a quiet difference between knowing about love and knowing love itself. Knowing about love can shape behavior, beliefs, and even devotion, but it often leaves the heart guarded. It creates faith that is careful, defensive, and alert, always checking itself for mistakes. Knowing love directly, however, produces trust. It doesn’t eliminate discernment, but it removes the constant sense of threat that many believers carry without realizing it.
This is why so many sincere Christians feel uneasy even when they believe the right things. Secondhand love can inform the mind while leaving the soul unsettled. It can teach obedience without producing peace. When faith is built primarily on explanation, people instinctively brace themselves, as if God’s acceptance depends on maintaining the correct posture, belief, or response at all times.
God never intended faith to begin with mastery. He intended it to begin with trust. Understanding grows over time, but relationship must come first. This is not a flaw in the way God designed us; it is the design itself. Love precedes comprehension, just as it preceded creation. When this order is reversed, faith becomes heavy. When it is restored, faith becomes livable.
What begins to change everything is realizing that God is not waiting for perfect understanding before offering closeness. He invites people to walk with Him while they learn, while they question, and even while they struggle. This is where secondhand belief starts to give way to lived relationship, and where faith stops feeling like something to defend and begins to feel like something to share.
Part 2
One of the most difficult things for people to reconcile is God’s willingness to wait. Silence, delay, and unanswered questions often feel like abandonment because we have been taught to associate love with immediacy. When something matters, we expect instant response. When God does not move on our timetable, many assume distance, displeasure, or absence. But patience is not the opposite of love. It is one of its purest expressions.
If love existed before creation, then God is not reacting to events as they unfold. He is not surprised by history, nor is He scrambling to correct mistakes. Delay does not signal uncertainty. It signals confidence. God waits because He is not threatened by time, and because what He is forming in a person often matters more than the speed of the outcome they are asking for. What feels like silence is often space being held for growth.
This is where trial becomes misunderstood. Difficulty is not introduced because God withholds Himself, but because relationship deepens when trust is exercised without immediate reassurance. Secondhand faith demands constant confirmation. Lived faith learns to walk without it. That transition is uncomfortable, but it is necessary if love is going to move from theory into participation. Capacity is not increased by explanation alone. It is increased by endurance.
Many people look back on their hardest seasons and realize that something in them changed permanently. Not because the answers arrived, but because trust did. They stopped needing God to prove Himself moment by moment and began recognizing His presence even when nothing resolved quickly. This is not resignation. It is maturity. It is the point where love no longer depends on conditions.
God’s timing is not a test of loyalty. It is an invitation into deeper relationship. Waiting with Him teaches something that immediate answers never can: that love is not fragile, that trust does not collapse under uncertainty, and that God remains close even when clarity has not yet arrived. This is where secondhand belief begins to loosen, and faith starts to breathe.
Part 3
There is a clear difference between God’s authority and every false authority people encounter, and that difference is felt in how time is treated. False authority rushes. It compresses decision-making, demands immediate reaction, and creates a constant sense that something terrible will happen if action is not taken right now. Urgency becomes the tool of control, and fear becomes the fuel that keeps people compliant and exhausted.
God does not operate this way. The authority that flows from love that existed before creation has no need to hurry. God does not compete for attention, nor does He rely on shock to be heard. When He warns, He also waits. When He speaks, He leaves space for response rather than forcing it. This steadiness is not weakness; it is confidence rooted in sovereignty rather than insecurity.
Many people mistake panic for discernment. They assume that feeling constantly alert, tense, and reactive means they are spiritually awake. In reality, that posture often signals manipulation rather than wisdom. Fear narrows perception. It shortens patience. It makes people easier to steer. God’s voice, by contrast, produces clarity even when the message is serious. It brings weight without chaos and conviction without frenzy.
This is why so many systems that claim to speak for God sound nothing like Him. They threaten timelines, amplify catastrophe, and frame obedience as something that must happen under pressure. But love does not coerce. Love invites. And authority that flows from love does not need to dominate emotion to secure loyalty. It trusts truth to stand on its own.
Learning to recognize this difference is crucial right now. When something pushes the soul into constant urgency, it deserves scrutiny. God’s guidance may be firm, but it will never feel frantic. His leadership creates room to think, pray, and choose, not because the stakes are low, but because love is strong enough to wait. This is one of the clearest markers that separates the voice of God from every counterfeit claiming to speak in His name.
Part 4
Many people are quietly unsettled right now, not because they have lost faith, but because the frameworks they relied on no longer hold. Beliefs that once felt stable now feel strained. Voices that once sounded clear now contradict one another. Long-trusted institutions appear fractured or unreliable. This disorientation is often interpreted as spiritual failure, but it is more accurately a sign of transition. Something old is loosening because something deeper is trying to take root.
Confusion is not always a threat. In Scripture and in life, it often appears at the boundary between inherited understanding and lived truth. When secondhand explanations can no longer carry the weight of reality, the soul feels exposed. That exposure can feel frightening, but it is also honest. God frequently allows this unraveling, not to leave people unmoored, but to remove supports that were never meant to replace relationship with Him.
What makes this season difficult is that many were taught to equate certainty with faith. When certainty cracks, fear rushes in. But faith was never meant to be certainty about outcomes. It was meant to be trust in God’s character. When clarity is delayed, the invitation is not to panic or scramble for new answers, but to lean more fully into who God has already shown Himself to be. Confusion becomes dangerous only when it is met with fear instead of humility.
This is why God does not rush to stabilize every shaken framework. Some things must fall apart to reveal what they were actually built on. When belief systems are stripped down, what remains is either relationship or reliance on structure. God desires the former. He is not offended by questions, nor threatened by uncertainty. He is patient enough to walk with people while they relearn how to trust without leaning on brittle supports.
For many, this moment is not the loss of faith but the beginning of something more honest. The ground feels unfamiliar because old landmarks are disappearing. But God has not moved. He is still present, still steady, still leading. What feels like instability may actually be the moment when faith stops resting on borrowed certainty and begins to stand on shared trust.
Part 5
Much of what passes for faith today is shaped by systems rather than relationship. People are given rules, warnings, and expectations, but very little space to know God personally. Over time, this produces a form of belief that looks active but feels heavy. Obedience becomes performance. Discernment becomes suspicion. Love becomes something to prove rather than something to live inside of.
This is what secondhand love looks like when it hardens into structure. It speaks constantly about God but rarely rests with Him. It emphasizes correctness over closeness and vigilance over trust. Many people have learned to function spiritually while remaining internally tense, as if one misstep, one wrong belief, or one missed sign could put them outside God’s care. That posture is exhausting, and it was never what God intended.
Secondhand love is not false, but it is incomplete. It can teach people how to behave without teaching them how to belong. It can produce followers who know the language of faith but struggle to feel safe in God’s presence. When love is mediated almost entirely through systems, it slowly loses its warmth and becomes abstract. God becomes an idea to manage rather than a presence to encounter.
This is why so many sincere believers burn out, withdraw, or grow numb. They are not rejecting God. They are reacting to a version of faith that never allowed intimacy to take root. What they are longing for is not less truth, but deeper truth. Truth that can be carried without fear. Truth that does not collapse when certainty fades.
God does not want admiration from a distance. He wants relationship. Structures have their place, but they are meant to support encounter, not replace it. When faith returns to relationship, obedience becomes response rather than obligation, and love begins to feel like home again instead of something that must be constantly maintained.
Part 6
One of the deepest fears many believers carry is the fear of being deceived. They worry that missing the right teaching, the right warning, or the right moment could somehow place them outside God’s protection. This fear often keeps people in a constant state of vigilance, scanning for threats rather than listening for God. But deception does not work the way many have been taught to fear it.
God does not hide truth from those who seek Him with humility. Scripture consistently shows that deception gains power where pride, haste, and fear dominate, not where patience, trust, and love of truth reside. The idea that God would allow sincere seekers to be easily tricked misunderstands His character. A loving Father does not set traps for His children, nor does He withhold guidance while expecting perfection.
Secondhand faith magnifies fear of deception because it relies heavily on external signals and constant verification. When relationship is shallow, people feel safer clinging to warnings and checklists. But when trust is rooted in God Himself, discernment becomes quieter and more stable. It is no longer driven by anxiety but by familiarity. Just as a child recognizes a parent’s voice without panic, a believer grounded in relationship learns to recognize what is not of God without constant alarm.
This does not mean discernment disappears. It becomes sharper, not louder. It does not need to shout to be effective. God’s guidance rarely arrives with chaos. Even when correction is necessary, it carries clarity rather than confusion. Fear may feel protective, but it often clouds judgment. Trust, by contrast, creates space to see clearly.
God’s desire is not to keep His people on edge, but to make them secure. When love is primary, deception loses much of its power. Not because threats vanish, but because the soul is no longer easily manipulated. Truth recognized through relationship stands far firmer than truth held together by fear.
Part 7
Many people believe that being spiritually prepared means staying constantly alert, informed, and ready to react. They measure readiness by how closely they track events, how quickly they respond to warnings, or how intensely they feel about what might be coming. Over time, this posture creates fatigue rather than faith. It trains the soul to live in anticipation of crisis instead of in trust.
Preparedness in God’s economy looks very different. It is not about constant readiness to respond to threat, but about becoming steady enough that threat cannot easily move you. Love rooted in trust produces discernment without obsession. When a person is anchored in relationship with God, they do not need to monitor every shift in the world to remain faithful. They are guided from within rather than driven from without.
This is what it means to become spiritually unmanipulable. Not resistant in a hardened way, but grounded in a way that cannot be easily rushed or frightened. False systems rely on emotional leverage to gain compliance. They push fear, outrage, or urgency because those states make people easier to steer. A soul at rest in God is difficult to control, because it does not panic when pressure is applied.
This kind of preparedness grows quietly. It is formed through prayer, patience, endurance, and daily faithfulness, not through constant exposure to alarming information. It does not disconnect people from the world, but it changes how they engage it. They respond thoughtfully instead of reactively. They listen before they act. They trust God’s guidance over their own adrenaline.
God is not preparing His people to survive by fear. He is forming them to stand in peace. When love is primary, readiness becomes less about bracing for impact and more about remaining aligned. This is a deeper kind of preparedness, one that cannot be easily shaken because it does not depend on circumstances to remain intact.
Part 8
Hardship has a way of exposing whether love is only understood or truly shared. When life is comfortable and predictable, it is easy to speak about trust without ever needing it. But when pressure comes, when answers do not arrive quickly, and when outcomes remain uncertain, something deeper is revealed. Trial does not remove love. It reveals how much of it has actually been received.
This is why suffering, though never celebrated, often becomes the place where relationship with God deepens most. Secondhand love struggles here. It wants explanations, guarantees, and immediate relief. Shared love learns to remain present even when those things are absent. Not because pain is good, but because trust has matured beyond conditions. What changes in trial is not God’s nearness, but our capacity to perceive it.
Many people discover in hindsight that their most difficult seasons formed something permanent in them. They did not simply survive; they were reshaped. Dependence gave way to trust. Fear gave way to endurance. God did not become more loving in those moments. He became more known. Trial stripped away illusions of control and replaced them with something quieter and stronger.
This is where faith moves from theory into participation. Love that has endured loss, waiting, and uncertainty is no longer abstract. It has weight. It has memory. It has depth. God does not lead people through hardship to prove loyalty, but to invite them into a love that can be shared rather than merely described.
What emerges from trial is not hardness, but capacity. The soul becomes able to hold more of God without collapsing into fear. This is not because suffering is virtuous, but because love experienced under pressure becomes real. And real love, once known, cannot easily be taken away.
Part 9
Many people spend years as spectators of faith without realizing it. They listen, study, debate, defend, and analyze, yet rarely feel at rest with God Himself. Their lives orbit belief, but never quite settle into relationship. God becomes a subject to manage rather than a presence to abide with. This is not rebellion; it is distance disguised as devotion.
Spectatorship feels safe because it offers control. If faith stays conceptual, it can be measured, adjusted, and protected from disappointment. But love was never meant to be observed from the outside. God does not invite people to understand Him perfectly, but to walk with Him honestly. Relationship always involves risk, because it requires trust rather than mastery.
This is why some who know the most about God still feel the least peace. Information without intimacy creates imbalance. The mind stays active while the soul remains guarded. Over time, faith can become noisy, defensive, and argumentative, not because truth is lacking, but because rest is missing. God never asked His people to carry Him on their shoulders. He asks them to walk beside Him.
Moving from spectatorship to participation does not require abandoning discernment or conviction. It requires releasing the need to control outcomes. Participation begins when people allow themselves to be known by God rather than merely knowing about Him. This shift is subtle, but it changes everything. Faith stops feeling like effort and starts feeling like companionship.
God is not impressed by those who study Him from a distance. He delights in those who walk with Him through uncertainty, weakness, and trust. Participation is where love becomes mutual, not because God changes, but because the soul finally stops standing outside the door and steps inside.
Part 10
God is not asking His people to solve Him, predict Him, or keep pace with every unfolding event. He is asking them to remain with Him. Love that existed before creation does not demand constant proof of loyalty or understanding. It invites presence. It invites walking together through time rather than racing ahead of it. When this is understood, much of the pressure people feel around faith begins to dissolve.
Many have been taught that faith is proven by intensity, urgency, or visible struggle. But God’s measure has always been different. Faithfulness is often quiet. It looks like patience when answers are slow, kindness when fear would be easier, and trust when certainty is unavailable. This kind of faith does not draw attention to itself, but it endures because it is rooted in relationship rather than performance.
When love is primary, obedience becomes response instead of obligation. Prayer becomes conversation instead of transaction. Discernment becomes clarity instead of suspicion. God is no longer approached as a risk to be managed, but as a presence to dwell with. This does not make life easier, but it makes it coherent. Even suffering finds its place without becoming meaningless.
God is not building people who are constantly braced for impact. He is forming people who can stand without panic, speak without fear, and love without condition. This formation takes time, and it unfolds through ordinary days more than dramatic moments. That slowness is not a flaw in the process. It is the process.
When all the noise is stripped away, what remains is simple and strong. Love came first. Relationship came before explanation. God is still inviting His people into that original order, not through pressure, but through presence. And those who accept that invitation discover that faith was never meant to feel like running from something, but like walking with Someone who has never stopped loving them.
Conclusion
Everything returns to where it began. Before fear, before law, before prophecy, before creation itself, there was love. Not a fragile love dependent on human response, but a love complete, steady, and unthreatened by time. When this is remembered, much of what overwhelms people today loses its power. God is not reacting to the world in panic, and He is not asking His people to live in panic either.
The exhaustion many feel is not a sign that faith has failed. It is often a sign that faith has been carrying weight it was never meant to bear. God never intended His people to live braced, anxious, or perpetually on alert. He intended them to walk with Him, to trust His character, and to grow into love through time, trial, and relationship. What feels like pressure is often an invitation to release control and return to trust.
This is not a call to withdraw from the world or ignore reality. It is a call to engage from a place of peace rather than fear. When love comes first, discernment becomes clearer, obedience becomes freer, and endurance becomes possible. God’s authority does not need urgency to sustain it. His love does not need fear to defend it.
The invitation remains the same now as it has always been. Not to understand everything, not to outrun deception, not to brace for collapse, but to remain with Him. The God who loved before creation has not changed. And those who learn to rest in that love will find that faith was never meant to feel like survival, but like belonging.
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Endnotes
- The framing of love as preceding creation reflects the biblical witness that God’s nature is love itself, not a quality developed through interaction with humanity. This understanding is grounded in passages such as 1 John 4:8 and reinforced by early Christian theology, which consistently presents creation as an expression of God’s being rather than a remedy for lack.
- The distinction between secondhand belief and lived relationship draws on longstanding Christian reflections about knowledge of God. Augustine repeatedly distinguishes between knowing about God and knowing God, especially in Confessions, where intellectual ascent alone is shown to be insufficient without relational encounter.
- The emphasis on patience, delay, and God’s unhurried nature aligns with the biblical portrayal of divine long-suffering, particularly in passages such as Exodus 34:6 and 2 Peter 3:9. These texts frame delay not as weakness or absence, but as mercy and confidence in God’s purposes.
- The contrast between false authority and divine authority follows a scriptural pattern in which coercion, urgency, and fear are associated with illegitimate power, while God’s authority is marked by invitation, truth, and patience. This contrast is implicit in Christ’s ministry and explicit in teachings such as Matthew 11:28–30.
- The treatment of confusion as transition rather than failure reflects the biblical pattern of testing and refinement, seen in figures such as Abraham, Job, and the wilderness generation. In each case, certainty is stripped away so that trust in God’s character, rather than outcomes, becomes central.
- The reframing of deception as ineffective against humility and trust echoes scriptural assurances that God guides those who seek Him sincerely, as in Proverbs 3:5–6 and John 10:27. Deception is consistently portrayed as operating through pride, fear, and haste rather than quiet dependence.
- The definition of preparedness as spiritual steadiness rather than constant vigilance aligns with New Testament exhortations toward watchfulness that emphasize sobriety, endurance, and peace rather than panic. This is particularly evident in Paul’s letters, where readiness is tied to character and perseverance.
- The understanding of trial as capacity-forming rather than punitive reflects both biblical wisdom literature and patristic theology. Gregory of Nyssa and other early writers describe suffering as the context in which the soul is enlarged to receive deeper communion with God.
- The distinction between spectatorship and participation in faith parallels Christ’s call to discipleship rather than mere observation. The Gospels consistently portray following Jesus as relational and embodied, not merely intellectual or doctrinal.
- The concluding emphasis on belonging over survival is consistent with the biblical arc from creation to redemption, in which humanity is invited into restored relationship rather than perpetual fear. This perspective undergirds the pastoral aim of the episode and shapes its rejection of fear-based spirituality.
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